ocd love story by author Corey Ann Haydu


When Bea meets Beck, she knows instantly that he’s her kind of crazy. Sweet, strong, kinda-messed-up Beck understands her like no one else can. He makes her feel almost normal. He makes her feel like she could fall in love again. But despite her feelings for Beck, Bea can’t stop thinking about someone else: a guy who is gorgeous and magnetic… and has no idea Bea even exists. But Bea knows a ton about him. She spends a lot of time watching him. She has a journal full of notes. Some might even say she’s obsessed.

Bea tells herself she’s got it all under control, but this isn’t a choice, it’s a compulsion. The truth is, she’s breaking down… and she might end up breaking her own heart.


*A Junior Library Guild Selection

*A BCCB Blue Ribbon Selection

*A YASLA Best Fiction for Young Adults Nominee

“Debut novelist Haydu doesn’t sugarcoat the difficulties of OCD or reduce her characters to a symptom list. . .to build a relationship with someone who’s seen them as they really are, to move past shame into intimacy, makes the story that much more touching.”
– Publishers Weekly, Starred Review ★

“Haydu explores a sweet, unconventional romance alongside her characters’ well-known (but little-understood) disorder. Heartwarming, frequently funny, and wholly honest, this debut novel is, well, compulsively readable.”
– Horn Book, Starred Review ★

“witty, affecting, and ferociously individual”
– BCCB, Starred Review ★

“Haydu is a masterful wordsmith…A raw and well-crafted alternative to run-of-the-mill teen romances that also addresses tough mental health issues head-on.”
– Kirkus

“Readers will easily accept what might, in the hands of a less skillful writer, seem like plot conveniences and connect with the well-drawn Bea and Beck. A compelling portrait of teen behavioral disorders and the struggle to overcome or, at the very least, balance them.”
– Booklist